laziness / lack of motivation. what's the difference?

As mentioned in my prior blog post, I'm in my final semester of school. I have an international business law midterm coming up on Tuesday, and I have no intention of studying for it until maybe Monday afternoon/night/Tuesday morning. I'm currently laying in bed/sipping on a cider thinking about how fucked I'm gonna be on Tuesday, but that's still not enough motivation for me to prevent my imminent doom. Anyway...approximately 3 minutes and 47 seconds ago I thought, "my oh my! what an excellent topic to gloss over in my next blog post!" So here it is. This little shindig is going to be about the drastic decline in motivation since I started college.

Because I'm too lazy to actually form articulate sentences to describe what I'm going through, I drew a graph instead (plus I like pretty pictures, so there's that).

Basically my motivation is at an all time low, and I'm just ready to be done with school so I can graduate. Honestly, I'm burned out. I need a break.

You got to admit. That's a pretty decent graph. At least it's accurate...unlike this:

Also.....where's the y-axis though? HMMMM????

Bringing it to a Close

Today I finished my last day of classes. The only thing that awaits me is finals, which starts on Wednesday.
It's a lazy Friday for me right now, so why not write a new post?


At this moment, I am watching 500 Days of Summer (in Spanish). Why, you may ask? No reason at all.


Anyway, this is not what I wanted to write about. I have been doing some reflecting on my freshman year in college. I can honestly say that I have learned so much about myself as a semi-independent student living thousands of miles away from my parents. Being away from home really made me analyze my belief systems. Why do I hold on to certain beliefs? Do I actually believe them or do I believe it under obligation from my parents? These types of questions really were influential in reshaping my worldview, and I know for a fact that I would not be experiencing all this if I were still at home.


I actually feel comfortable with who I am as a person because I really had to pick and choose the certain values and belief systems that only I agree with. With that being said, I'm glad I'm in college. I would not trade this experience for the world.


This college experience was a good learning experience in the areas of friendship. At the beginning of the year, I felt desperate to find friends, fearing that I might end up being perceived as a loner. Unfortunately, I lowered my standards in the quality friends I made, so I shouldn't have been surprised that these so-called friendships were phony. Yes, these poor quality friendships I made ended up horribly, but it was another life lesson that I will never forget.


As for living situations go, all I can say is that it's tough. Having a roommate for three quarters of the school year and abruptly leaving half way through the second semester, was probably the most frustrating event throughout my school year. I know I am not a perfect person, but I really did try to work things out as a civil roommate. Frustration, anger, and betrayal were growing inside of me even to this day, and it is still so difficult to let go of bitterness and animosity towards someone who lacks maturity in certain situations.


On that happy note, freshman year was not what I expected. Even though my situation was not close to being 'ideal,' I am grateful that all of the little mishaps occurred; without them, how will that make me a better person? Sometimes in life, trials come along to make you a stronger person. These life events give you the experience needed to succeed in life. This most certainly has been a growing year for me, and I will gladly accept life as it comes my way, whether good or bad.

HELP! I'M DROWNING!! ...in homework.

I realized I haven't made a new post in nearly a month because I'm so busy!!


This semester I'm taking 18 hours of classes, and there's just so much reading to do! Want to know what courses I'm taking this semester? ....good! I'm glad you want to know!! Listed below are the classes I'm taking, and my opinion about them.


Business Statistics: SO CHILL. I love math related subjects, and my teacher is pretty cool. No complaints  :)


Christian Heritage: not my cup of tea. Seems a bit too philosophical for my taste. Professor is dynamic!


Chapel: no comment. haha


English: so far, pretty easy. My classmates are basically lifeless...discussions don't go well in this class.


World Oceans: not interested in this subject at all, but my professor is so adorable!! Cute little old lady :)


Business: LOVE. EVERYTHING. ABOUT. THE. CLASS.


Leadership: two hours straight of discussion what a leader is can get bland very quickly.


Besides classes and homework, all I do is eat (I'm pretty sure I gained 5 pounds this week), work out (while reading homework), and stressing about how much stuff I have to do.


Alright, that's it. Pretty lame month, but at least I'm still alive right?!




or am I?!?! dun dun DUNNNNN!!!!

BONUS BLOG!!!!

This will be a quick little BONUS entry just because I have so much reading to do this weekend.

Anyway....I realized that yes, I pretty much kicked my YouTube addiction since school constantly keeps me busy, BUT I have a new addiction.

FOOD.

Seriously, food tastes so good. I was talking to my sister on Skype last night, and she pointed out to me that in nearly all my blogs, I mention food. It's so true!!

Can you blame me?? Buffet style cafeterias, stir fry, oh so tasty pizza, breakfast burritos and FREAKIN CHICKEN FRIED STEAK!!!

Forgive me, Lord, if food has become my idol.
And everybody says...... AAAAAMEN.